Breaking The Silence

I am breaking my self-imposed blogger silence to relate how I screwed up and would love to be able to fix it. A lot of times my words are the only way I can communicate effectively the point or points I am trying to get across. Like a lot of other bloggers out there, I have the mistaken tendency to believe that what I write is important, needs to be read, and my limited readership cannot wait until I post another blog of my insights into, in this case, relationships and dating. Texting is the worst thing that happened to me. Most of the time before I hit the send button on any deeply thought out text I think is the most important thing in the world designed to sooth my feelings and ego, I should open up my living room window and throw my cell phone as far as I can and I could used to throw a baseball 90 Miles Per Hour. It would do me and whoever is about to receive my message a world of good. I do put a lot of time, effort, and thought, into my blogs but that still does not make them meaningful. Life and death is meaningful. A mother getting a phone call from her son telling her he is being shipped out to Afghanistan is meaningful. It is a mother's worst nightmare. Whenever she informed me of this, it was like a gut punch to me so I can only imagine how she felt. I did not know this when I sent my ill-advised text and I quickly heard about it and I should have. Reality is a real kick in the ass and I could never apologize enough for thinking I was more important (and I have quickly realized I am not important at all) than a much bigger picture. I apologized for my selfishness but I cannot take back what I did and I can only hope I will eventually be forgiven. My political awareness is not on the scale of the mother's but I do know that political promises were made to pull our soldiers out of Afghanistan. I do know that a newly recruited 18 year old soldier being deployed is not a fair trade on anyone's scale. All I can do is request a Guardian Angel go with this young man and bring him home safely. The politics do matter because they have the ability to affect everyone that you know.