I make light of a lot of things in my blogs but there is one thing that I cannot make light of anymore and that is the fact that I am severely depressed. The list of reasons are a mile long and I guess it is kind of pointless to list all of hem or any of them really. I guess what really pushed me over the edge was my failing health and the realization that the healthcare system will not take care of my multitude of health problems unless I cut them all a big check first. The bothersome part about that is that I have health insurance through the company that I work for. I am in mind numbing pain 24 hours a day and there is not a thing I can do about it and there is no help to be found.
I was writing in my journal last night when I had this epiphany about being depressed when I realized that I really do not want to be around my family or friends and I don't really know how this works but I am sure that it all builds into one final act. How long does the play last?
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