Wasted Time

The 1980's Hair Metal Band Skid Row had a song called "Wasted Time" that has pretty much describes my current state of mind and situation as well as my vacation that is coming to a crashing end. There one line in the song that goes "Paranoid delusions they haunt you Where's my friend I used to know He's all alone He's buried deep within a carcass Searching for a soul" I have been on vacation for a week and I did nothing to change my current situation, my outlook on life, or anything productive to improve myself. Instead I elected to hide in my apartment with the doors locked and the blinds pulled tight. I would love to be able to snap out of this and develop a positive mindset and seek something positive rather than waiting on the bomb to drop. Maybe they are not the crazy ones, maybe it is me.