Evidently there is an art to being selfish and having a clear conscience about it. I have not discovered what that secret is yet. Some people can do whatever they want to do and expect to get their way every time. If they do not get their way it starts falling apart.
I consider myself a giving person. Others that I know (and have been out with) would dispute that fact. I am more than willing to make sacrifices in order to be with someone but those sacrifices do not necessarily mean anything other than my time. Walter Lang said "Time was God's first creation." Time can be given freely but it can be the most valuable thing you own.
I try to put my girlfriend first. I have been told that is not necessarily the case. I feel guilty if I do anything for myself. To hell with it.
I could have a self-debate about this subject forever. I am going to be selfish for a while. I am going to do what I want to do when I want to do it. I refuse to involve other people in my selfish acts. I am not out to hurt anyone. I am going to stay off of the dating websites and try to stay away from any emotional entanglements whatsoever. I am not going to become involved in other people's miserable mess of a life because I do not need it. I am going to be unapologetically selfish and be damn happy about it.
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