Starting Over

I hate to be put in the position of being 47 years old and starting over but that is where I am about to be. I was telling my friend Bonnie this afternoon that I am trying so hard to turn a negative into a positive but in this case it is almost impossible. The best way for me to do that is to leave my current place of employment, whether it be their choice or mine, and go out and realize the potential I always know that I have had. I have just kept it a secret from everyone else, friends and family included. I have always made it a habit to float through life without any ambition or goals for myself and it has allowed me to live this current poverty-stricken standard of living I posess today. I love to write. I kn ow people that squeak by doing it and i know people that make a great living doing it. Stephen king I am not but I would settle for squeaking by, waiting on that one book to hit it big. I read somewhere, and the numbers are probably wrong, that over 20,000 people every year try to get published and only about 800 make it. That is less than 5 percent. I should be used to the deck being stacked against me.